This post has been sitting on my draft folder for months now. I'm posting it today because I've been thinking of confessing. I have a big secret. I still don't have the guts to confess, but someday I will say it. I will tell the world.
I've been following Blogsecret and reading PostSecret for months now. I keep seeing secrets on my Tumblr dashboard every time I log in. Sometimes it's kinda comforting to see people's secrets and some that we can relate to. It's nice to know that we're not in this alone. There are 7.038.044.500 people in the world, and right now another soul is being born. Among those people, there are some who feel exactly what we're feeling right now. I'm quite sure about that.
Not long ago, one friend came out of the closet. And yesterday, another one did the same. Their statements somehow had initiated a thought in my mind: How many people around me are actually keeping a big secret?
How many of them are not what they seem to be?
How many of them are pretending just to make their surroundings happy?
How many of them are acting like someone that the society expects?
How many of them are gay?
How many of them are atheist?
How many of them are no longer a virgin?
They exist. They're around us, those people with their eyes screaming to be heard. I wonder how many people I know are keeping a big secret.
And I can't help but wonder, too, if I'm actually keeping a big secret myself.