bad people

27 Jun 2012

I am Azula of the Fire Nation, a dragon of the west, the rightful lord of these four nations, trueborn daughter of Fire Lord Ozai. And hair grows back.

Has it ever crossed your mind that bad people actually have good intentions deep inside their hearts? Like when Azula fights like crazy, she just wants to fulfill her father's grandfather's dreams and inherit the throne as she has been promised all these times. Like when Cinderella's step sisters try to fit their feet in the shoe, they just want to be princesses and marry the prince (oh isn't it every girl's dream?). And Tris (in Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist) really loves Nick; she's just gone wrong and treated Nick badly. And many more examples.

Everybody wants to be loved. Everybody has dreams. But some of them take the wrong way to make the dreams come true.

It's just a thought, though. Only a thought.

"i have died everyday waiting for you."

25 Jun 2012

That one line just kills me. The next one ("Darling don't be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years; I'll love you for a thousand more.") sends me right to a place in between heaven and hell. It's been playing on repeat for days now, the only song in my playlist. Kinda reminds me of a story about a girl who keeps waiting for her lover and keeps loving him throughout these years. This song plus the thought of her have been messing with my head. I can't (or maybe I can?) imagine how broken her heart would be if she lost him.

On the sidenote, I love these official lyric videos that they make. Brilliant idea. I have seen fan-made lyric videos on YouTube, and now they create the official ones. I love it.


23 Jun 2012

I have always known that if I were a student of Hogwarts, I would surely enroll in Slytherin. It was proved by the Sorting Hat in Pottermore. So I guess it's official now: I'm a Slytherin (and proud of that!)

I'm a little bit left behind on this Pottermore thingy and I haven't had any friends yet. If you're on Pottermore too, I would be very glad if you could add me as your friend (or you could just leave your username on the comment section so I could add you). My username is HazelStar26346. (Isn't it such a bummer that we can't choose our own username? I would like to use something like DaraMalfoy or PutdarLongbottom. Oh well...)

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i'm lovin' it

22 Jun 2012

I had my favourite dessert with my favourite person this afternoon. He is now en route to his hometown and he'll stay there for over a week. I told him I wouldn't miss him; truth is... I've already missed him the second we parted ways.
But surely one week is not very long, is it?

it was just a dream

19 Jun 2012


For the past few days, I've been having these dreams. I can't say that they're all bad dreams, but they surely made me feel a little bit hollow. I keep telling myself that they were all just dreams; that I shouldn't let them rule my head. But it's hard, you know. They have affected my thoughts these days. I hope tonight I could get a better dream. One about London, maybe?

one of those days

18 Jun 2012


We all have those days when everything seems like getting on our nerves, yet we can not put our fingers on what exactly annoys us. This has been one of those days for me. It's okay, though. Cause in ten nine minutes, this day will be over and tomorrow is waiting for me. Yeah, like I can't wait...

weekend is for...

17 Jun 2012

For the second time in the last two months, P and I went to Garut. While last month we went to P's old place when he was on student community service, Leles, this time we went to Sindangmekar, Wanaraja, which is going to be my place on student community service next month. The journey from Bandung to Garut was just as smooth as the last time, but Wanaraja turned out to be a little bit farther than I had expected. And what is worse was the fact that to reach Sindangmekar, we had to take a route with a bumpy road. But I have to adapt to it because I'm going to stay there for about 40 days.

Now I'm really, really tired. I still have to do a final assignment for Research Methodology class, due on Wednesday at 10.40am. I can not procrastinate again (like I did for TEYL last week).

And how about your weekend?

weekend is for...

12 Jun 2012

1. Going to a jazz concert

2. Watching Euro 2012 with some friends.


3. Having lunch with family.

I know it's already Tuesday here in Bandung. But, hey! I still haven't moved on from the excitement of last weekend just yet. Because I had so much fun!

How was your weekend?

"Call upon Me; and I will answer you."

10 Jun 2012

Hand sky

I don't quite remember when was the first time I slipped that wish into my prayer every night. That one little wish of "Dear Lord, please give it to me." Because I do want it to be mine and mine only. When you've spent every night and day just thinking about it and how wonderful it would be if it were yours, and you have tried so hard to get it, the only thing that's left to do is to pray. And so I do pray.

Or did. Because as the days go by, I've found myself staring at the same empty picture frames. And now that one little wish slowly changes into "Dear Lord, should I never get it, please ease the pain as I let it go." Because even if God hasn't spoken just yet, I already know the answer. From the very start.

So forgive me, my Lord, for I have wanted what I shouldn't.

(Title is from The Holy Quran 40:60)

5 things: movies about moving on

6 Jun 2012

It's been a while since the last time I wrote a 5 things post. Also, I haven't posted anything since Sunday, so I think it's a good time to bring back this series of 5 things I love (or hate in several cases). This week I'm bringing you, ladies and gentlemen, five movies about moving on...

1. Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist
I first knew about this movie from a review in a local newspaper. They gave a good rating for this movie, so as soon as the DVD was out, I bought it and brought it home. It turned out to be one of the funniest movies I had ever seen. This movie is basically about a bunch of teenagers who stay up all night looking for a missing drunk girl while also looking for a secret gig of their favourite band, Where's Fluffy?. Our hero and heroine both recently broke up with their on-again-off-again girlfriend/boyfriend. They found each other at a gig in a ridiculous way and spent the whole night together in a search party. As the night goes by, they get to know each other better and start to fall in love.
Lesson(s) learnt:
Sometimes it's okay to rush. If you've found someone better, don't be afraid to fall in love again, even if you've just broke up recently. Because, who knows? Maybe they are really the cure that God sends down from heaven, right?

2. The Holiday
This movie is about two heartbroken women who decide to swap houses after both of their relationships fail. The American girl goes to stay in a small house in England; the English girl goes to stay in a big, modern house in US. While on their stay, they both find someone new. But with new people, comes new problems. The English girl's ex comes to visit her in US and she is tempted once again, though in the end she finally realises that he is not right for her. The American girl finds out that the man she falls in love with is actually a widower with two daughters, but in the end they can get along very well.
Lesson(s) learnt:
Don't be afraid to stand up and walk away from a bad relationship. Don't force yourself to stay in a relationship that you know will never work. Also, you have to be open-minded because love is actually all around. (PS. Traveling can help you get over a broken heart.)

3. P.S. I Love You
Ah... This one is a tear-jerker. It's about a woman whose husband died because of a brain tumor. After he died, she withdraws herself from the world and hides in her apartment. But on her birthday, she receives a letter from her late husband. It turns out to be the first of a series of letters written by her late husband to help her move on with her life. The letters tell her to do some activities and go to Ireland, the husband's homeland. Along her journey, she meets new people and a particular man who catches her attention. She can move on little by little, thanks to the letters. In the end, she finally overcomes her fear of falling in love again.
Lesson(s) learnt:
It's okay to mourn, it's okay to break down. But you can't be sad for too long. You have to get up, get back on track, and move on with your life. I know it's a little bit contradictive from the first movie, but it's also okay to take your time and not to rush things. Take a little break, but don't be afraid to fall in love again.

4. (500) Days of Summer
What good is this list without Summer Finn? I do believe that everyone of you knows what this movie is about, am I right? Now let's save some energy by not writing a short synopsis, shall I? ;)
Lesson(s) learnt:
Dear guys, if a girl says she doesn't want a relationship, well she doesn't. No matter how many times you kiss, how many times you go out, if she has said that she doesn't want a relationship, she doesn't want a relationship. And if you have your heart broken, guys (and girls), staying in bed for days will not help you getting over her. Get up and live your life. Go out and meet new people. Because even after summer ends, autumn will come and take over the wheel.

5. Little Manhattan
Little Josh Hutcherson has his first love in Little Manhattan when he falls in love with a girl he's known since kindergarten. He tries many ways to make her love him back while he also has to deal with the problem in his family because his parents are in the process of getting divorced. In the end, he doesn't get the girl, but he learns many things from his attempts to get closer to her and from his parents' failed marriage.
Lesson(s) learnt:
There's always a brighter side in every story. Try to see the good things and accept them as a lesson that you can learn so you will not make the same mistake again.

That's my list of five movies about moving on. Have you watched them? Or do you have other movies to be added to my list? Let me know if you do.

See you in the next 5 things post!

All pictures were taken from IMDb.

happy sunday, y'all!

3 Jun 2012

From my Instagram

Today I took a break from all the whole moving-thingy. I watched Waterboys and went out to Ciwalk to play Pump It Up. I have sore legs tonight but I had so much fun. And since I had a great Sunday, I think I'm ready to face Monday ;)

Well, what about you? How was your Sunday?

let's start all over again!

2 Jun 2012

So I changed a lot of things today. I changed this blog's name and layout. I deleted a lot of unnecessary badges from my sidebar. I also deleted my sponsors' buttons. I'm really sorry I have to cancel our agreement on button swaps. I'm getting a lot busier now that I don't have enough time to pay attention to my sponsors. I don't feature them anymore; in fact, I don't even visit them and leave a comment or two like I used to do. I'm a bad blogger. I will email each of you who has agreed to swap button with me as soon as I have the time. I'm currently busy arranging my stuffs in my new house. Oh wait; I haven't told you that I'm moving to a new house, have I? (See? I'm a horrible blogger.)

It's a new month (can't believe it's June already!) and I'm in a new house. I'm hoping that this blog can have a new beginning too. A lot of things have happened lately. A lot of bad things, actually. So I'm hoping I can go back to regular posting about my daily life without emphasizing on the bad stuffs. I have a wonderful life. Oh yes I do.

Be nice to me, June!

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