'braces' yourself, my braces are coming.

31 May 2012

So, today I had my braces on:


Sorry for the crappy webcam photo. Can you see my braces? They're only for my upper teeth, the lower ones will get braces on July. Just add my eyeglasses and pimples, and I'll look like a total nerd. Like nerdy nerd, not hipster geek. Oh well...

Sincerely,
Putdar.

and then there were none

29 May 2012


Have I told you that I'm a big fan of Agatha Christie's works? And Then There Were None (or Ten Little Niggers/Indians) is one of my favourite. You could imagine how excited I was when I found out that a drama group in Maranatha University was going to play a drama based on the novel. The drama was played twice on Saturday and Sunday. I went there on Saturday.

The actors and actresses were marvelous. Their English pronunciation was very amazing (judging from my point of view as an English education students, compared to some of my friends' pronunciation, sadly theirs was still better.) They made several changes on the script without changing the whole story. In general, it was very good. I really enjoyed it. I hope they're going to hold more plays based on Agatha Christie's works. How wonderful would that be?

Sincerely,
Putdar.

dream a little dream of me.

24 May 2012

Dear friends,
I'm sorry that lately my writings have been a little bit negative. I hope I can make up with you by posting these pretty pictures of five beautiful cities I really want to visit someday. I need to remind myself that life is actually beautiful, the world is actually very big and I have only visited only a small part of it. This sadness is nothing compared to the happiness that I could get from the whole world. Someday I'm going places and I'll see that everything is, in fact, going to be okay.

Berlin. {source}

Cape Town. {source}

Amsterdam. {source}

Ottawa. {source}

London. {source}

Sincerely,
Putdar.

edelweiss

21 May 2012

{source}

I will never understand how the universe works. Never.

Yesterday afternoon, I decided to wear a skirt and went out. After parking my motorcycle, I took out my wallet to put the parking ticket in. At that moment, I saw a dry edelweiss. He gave me this flower a long, long time ago. He called it 'the flower of eternity' and he gave it to me, wishing that our love would last until eternity. Well, seeing our situation now, I thought I should do something about it. Because keeping it on my wallet would always remind me of him. At first, I was thinking of giving it back to him, but I knew he wouldn't want to take it. And then, I thought perhaps I could just throw it away, but I couldn't do that to a special flower like this edelweiss. I didn't know what to do, so I decided to think about it later.

On my way back home in the evening, I somehow lost my bag with a lot of things inside it; my wallet is one of them. My theory is that I accidently kicked it off my bike and couldn't see it happening because my view was blocked by my skirt. Yes, I lost my wallet, including the edelweiss.

Maybe this is God's way to help me moving on with my life. I put all of our photographs inside the wallet, and now that it's gone, all the photographs are gone too. Our pictures together, smiling at the camera, are all gone.

And this morning I found out that he already changed his relationship status on Facebook. So it's official, then. I didn't want to believe that it was really over, but it is over.

But I'll be alright. We'll be fine. Eventually.

Sincerely,
Putdar.

ode to the heart

20 May 2012

Situ Cangkuang, Garut. 19 May 2012.

Here's to the girls who are strong enough to let go. Here's to those who are brave enough to leave a relationship that's not working (anymore). It's okay to cry, and it's okay not to cry. You will be okay, maybe not today, but eventually. He might be a prince charming, but prince charmings are for helpless princesses. You are strong and you are brave; you deserve a knight in shining armour who will fight for you. Surely, memories of him are killing you slowly. You want to forget but that's not how it works. You can't forget memories; you can only prevent them from popping out every now and then. Create new memories, go on road trips, join new clubs. Most of all, go on with your life. Stop perusing your timeline to see if he recently tweets something. Stop visiting his profile page to see how he's doing. It doesn't matter anymore. Focus on yourself. You've spent two years and a half to take care of him; now it's time for you to take care of yourself. Don't worry (too much). Remember this: you are loved. Someone else out there is thinking about you and trying to find you as soon as possible. Take your time. Don't force yourself. Time will eventually heal the wound.

Sincerely,
Putdar.

quoted saturday

19 May 2012




Sincerely,
Putdar.

about the flat brown shoes

18 May 2012


I've had this pair of shoes for months. I know they're not that pretty (in fact, Ian once called them 'old lady's shoes'), but I love them. I love them very much that I used them almost every day. Even when they started to show some signs that they would be broken at any time, I still kept using them. I forced them until they finally gave up. Today, they're really torn apart.

Someone asked me why I didn't try to fix them. Well, it's too late, isn't it? I mean, look at them. There's nothing I can do. Even if tried, they wouldn't last any longer. Maybe it's best to just put them off.

Those flat brown shoes will always be in my heart, even though I already bought a new pair. Because I love them. Since the beginning to the very end.


Sincerely,
Putdar.

long weekend is for...

17 May 2012



Hi! I'm writing on my phone because I ran out of internet credit. It's a long weekend here in Indonesia. And like every long weekend, Bandung is crowded by tourists. I'd rather stay at home than going out to face the traffic jam.

Also, I'm not in a good mood for going out. Unless you come and pick me up, I'm not going anywhere. Haha!

How's your Thursday been so far?

Sincerely,
Putdar.

ciwidey and a bathtub full of hot water

15 May 2012


Last weekend, I went to Ciwidey with my classmates (which means that Mr Boyfriend went too). We stayed in two cottages with a spring water pool in front of them. We're still having the wet season here in Bandung, but luckily, it was sunny during the two days we stayed there. It was sunny but Ciwidey was still very cold, especially in the night. But at least the water was hot. I spent half an hour in the bathtub, enjoying the warmth whilst thinking about a lot of things.

I found it quite funny that I didn't really enjoy the holiday, except for the hot water. It was fun, really. But somehow I didn't want to stay any longer there. Something ruined the fun I should've been having there.

It was sunny but my mind was cloudy.

Sincerely,
Putdar.

quoted saturday

12 May 2012



Sincerely,
Putdar.

ginger dx

10 May 2012

After weeks of talking about it, Vicky and I finally got the guts to upgrade our Eclair X8 to the custom ROM of Gingerbread, Ginger DX. After successfully installing it on my phone, the internet wasn't working and I didn't know why. Custom ROMs usually have bugs on them, but based on what we had learnt from all the articles we'd read, internet connection wasn't one of the bugs. I freaked out, but then Vicky came up with a solution that we should change the settings for the internet and... voila!


And since my phone now has Android 2.3, I'm able to have an Instagram account. Follow me! :)

Sincerely,
Putdar.

almost

8 May 2012


It just crossed my mind tonight while talking to a friend via YM. 'Almost' sometimes hurts badly. Like when you get an 89 points for a B, when all you need is just one more point to get an A. You almost get an A, but you don't. It hurts way more than getting a C straightforwardly.

Sincerely,
Putdar.

"i am not pretty. i am not beautiful."

7 May 2012


Throughout these years, I have come to be used to say thank you and not let it go inside my head whenever someone says that I'm pretty. Because I know that I'm not that pretty. And sometimes it's hard to decide whether they really mean to compliment me or if they're just being sarcastic.

But when it comes to you, when you're the one who says that I'm beautiful, I fall for it. I blush. I can't say thank you and walk away like I usually do. It goes straight into my head and creates a smile on my face.

You might not believe it, but it gives me an additional reason to wake up in the morning and smile foolishly at the mirror. Really. You really did this to me.

And you know what? I love you. I really do.

Sincerely,
Putdar.

introducing you to menaq

6 May 2012

This semester, I have to take Enterpreneurship class and for the final project, we have to create a business worth Rp15 million by the end of the semester. My group and I decided to create a clothing and accessories line called Menaq.


This morning, we opened a booth at an event in our campus. And this was how our booth looked like with all the stuffs we tried to sell. We managed to sell only one item, but we just started. Every journey starts with a small step, right? :)


This is Entin and I, wearing samples of our products: a flower ring and a headband. And I ended up buying the ring, because it looks very cute on my finger. And because it's the exact same colour with my veil. Haha!


But I swear it does look very cute ;)


Sincerely,
Putdar.

ABCDay 2012's blog contest (+ a giveaway information)


As I have mentioned earlier, right now I'm preparing for ABCDay 2012. On that event, there will be a blogging contest and a seminar. The contest has been started since 15 April and will still be open until 15 May. The seminar, and the winner announcement, will be held on 26 May 2012. For further information, you may follow this link.

On a different matter, I also want to tell you that Neely is having a giveaway on her blog. Check it out!


A Complete Waste of Makeup


Sincerely,
Putdar.

quoted saturday

5 May 2012



Sincerely,
Putdar.

hello, may!

4 May 2012

I am such a bad, bad blogger for taking a long hiatus without telling you guys first. I am so sorry. I know that you might have gotten sick of me apologising and promising to post regularly. So here's the deal now: I will not promise you to post regularly but I will try my best.

I would like to thank every one of you who keeps checking my blog because when I checked my stats, it turned out that this blog still has + 70 visitors everyday during my long, long hiatus. Thank you, thank you. And I'm sorry for bringing you down.

Since my last post, I spent the remaining days in April finishing Catching Fire and Mockingjay, watching Star Wars Episode IV, preparing for BlowUP!'s ABCDay, going to classes, doing (little) homeworks, etc. I came home late almost every night, so I didn't get the chance to write anything here. (It's not an excuse. It's just I feel like telling you. Hehe...)

And now it's already fourth of May. You know what that means? It means that this semester will end very soon, ABCDay is approaching, and so are AECS and TEYL seminar. Woot woot woot... It's a busy month!

But, like I said before, it's fourth of May! You know what else that means?

{source}

Yes, guys. It's Star Wars Day! :)

Sincerely,
Putdar.